One Day at a Time

One thing I have discovered: if I get sleep, my life is good and happy. I can take whatever's thrown at me. When I don't get sleep, one little comment from can make me feel like my world is going to end and I "downward spiral". Bear is getting to enjoy this and learning to send me home to sleep when he sees it coming on. Right now, I have sleep and I'm very happy.

The ring is still not here. It's a complicated process. Bear's dad is supposed to get a picture from the jeweler today and Bear is supposed to approve it. Hopefully it will be here by Valentine's! And the wedding plans haven't progressed much. We're trying to decide if we want to have the reception the night before, so we can leave for St. Louis right after the temple, or just get it all done in one day...we're trying to figure those bugs out. And we've narrowed down our reception buildings, but still haven't decided on a certain one yet. My grandma's wedding dress got delivered to my mom, and apparently it fits Tashi, so it should be okay on me too. I've only seen pictures, not in person, but my mom says it's in really good shape (and I trust her because she's a fabric expert). But the lace has yellowed. My mom says we need to try and get special permission from the temple. Hopefully they'll let me. At this point, we're asking people about decorating, catering, the cake, and photography, but no definite plans yet. But my roommates are planning on taking me to D.C. at the beginning of April for a bachelorette party. If we're lucky, we'll get to see the cherry blossoms!

I'm keeping up with my classes and assignments of all kinds - especially if I read my scriptures first. I haven't missed a single class except for when I was sick and so I feel like I'm understanding everything. So life is good. Except blogging unfortunately has to be at the bottom of my to-do list and never gets done. I wish I could blog everyday. :(

When I feel bogged down by everything (I just need to go to sleep), but I also remember the talk by D. Todd Christofferson from the CES fireside on January 9th - which ironically was the same day I got engaged:

"In the 1950s my mother survived radical cancer surgery, but difficult as that was, the surgery was followed with dozens of painful radiation treatments in what would now be considered rather primitive medical conditions. She recalls that her mother taught her something during that time that has helped her ever since: “I was so sick and weak, and I said to her one day, ‘Oh, Mother, I can’t stand having 16 more of those treatments.’ She said, ‘Can you go today?’ ‘Yes.’ ‘Well, honey, that’s all you have to do today.’ It has helped me many times when I remember to take one day or one thing at a time.”

The Spirit can guide us when to look ahead and when we should just deal with this one day, with this one moment. If we ask, the Lord will let us know through the Holy Ghost when it may be appropriate for us to apply in our lives the commandment He gave His ancient Apostles: “Take therefore no thought for the morrow, for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient is the day unto the evil thereof”

I hope this helped your day in some way. I'm planning on buying a digital camera from my refund check! I'm so excited! And I'm so excited for Valentine's day because Bear said he's going to surprise me! I love being engaged :) Leave me comments!

ENGAGED

I have officially been engaged for a 2 weeks today.

I keep thinking that I'll get used to the idea. But no. I do remember the whole day after I was floating on air. But then Bear got me sick. He only felt a little bit gross one day, while i still get a tiny symptom for a little bit in the day. So it's been this week long virus. And it made me very grumpy. Part of it was the stress of getting engaged, work starting back up again, and a bunch of homework all landing on me at the same time. Bear felt all bad because he thought I was just stressed out from being engaged, which isn't true. But it was hard to prove that to him when my temper was so short and snappy. Everyday I almost felt sick enough to not go to class, but I wanted the money and I already felt like I was drowning in all my classes.

But I got to leave work early on a day I was feeling particularly nasty. And I took one shift off my weekly work schedule, and didn't have to take one of my precious "free days". I got caught up on my homework, Bear took me to get some Nyquil and Dayquil that night, and life is good now. Except for the time I took Dayquil and got high that night in the cafeteria. That was weirdest feeling ever. I never want it to happen again. I lost all my motor skills. My food wasn't making to my mouth. I couldn't hold onto my utensils...it wasn't pretty. This is why I like being healthy.

So anyways, I'm back to normal and I feel like I can handle life again. 4.5 months seems so far away, but everyone keeps telling me it will go by fast. I believe them now because I can't believe it's already been 2 weeks. I'm just glad I have all this time to plan. Right now, thinking about people who only have a month to plan a wedding makes me want to cry. I need those extra months, especially with school.

We have set a date - JUNE 4TH. And I reserved the temple. Tashi is my maid of honor, with no other bridesmaids. We're going to St. Louis for a our honeymoon. My wedding colors are pink and blue, with a Japanese theme (cherry blossoms and white and china etc.) There will only be one reception in Nauvoo. We're just getting it all done in one day. Then we'll have enough time to get back before Bear starts his full-time cafeteria job for EFY back here at school. So anyways, we don't know where the reception will be yet. But both of our bishops know we're engaged and we're on the right track. We've asked a girl from school to do our engagement pictures. I'm thinking about using my grandma's wedding dress from the 60's. Yet again, theknot.com is my best friend right know with my checklist of things I need to do.

And I'm working out everyday. I hope to be super fit by the time June rolls around.

We set aside Sundays for wedding planning. We're already having our first family councils. And can I just say I'm super excited to buy clothes for Bear for the rest of my life? That's just that much more fun I get to have!

I will promise to update more often. It's so fun and exciting to talk about a wedding!

I am in a new life-stage

I have seriously been horrible at updating my blog since I've been at college. I still have that problem where I feel like I can't post if I don't have pictures. So here's the update since November:

* I got a boyfriend right after Thanksgiving
* I survived my first semester of college
* I passed all my classes and kept my the required GPA for my scholarship
* I got called into the Relief Society presidency in my student ward
* I went to Utah for Christmas, which was a very positive experience. I got to spend lots of time with immediate and extended family, and catch up with a lot of friends.
* I got a sewing machine from Santa. Life is complete.
* I've started my second semester. I'm taking English Composition, Body Attack, Teachings of the Living Prophets, Classics of Western Literature, Group Voice, Bella Voce, and Western Civilization.
* I had new cousins born, and I met all of them, except one.
* but most important of all...

I GOT ENGAGED!!!!!

Which was a total surprise for me too. I'm making a wedding blog, and will give the url for that soon. I'll still update this blog too.

P.S. theknot.com is the best thing in my life right now.