Temple/Colors/Theme

I want to get married in the Nauvoo temple. But the Rome temple sounds pretty nice too. If the Rome one gets done in the next 4 years, I'll be yearning for that one. The assignment says how much will it cost? It's for FFrrrrrrrrrrreeeeeeeeeeee! (from Bedtime Stories) And no, it will not be a minister/priest/justice of peace! It will be a sealer :)

And I want to have my reception at the Nauvoo House if that's possible. But if not, and if it's a good time of year, our backyard. And no liquor at my reception!

And I want a light blue, pink, and white wedding. With a sort of Japanese theme. Pink cheeryblossoms and blue and white china sort of thing.

I like these 3 cakes, and I love the bouquet below:

Open-Formal Wedding/Rehearsal Dinner

I want the parents of the bride and groom and the bride and groom to be formal for the reception, but have it a traditional Mormon open house reception. I have lived many different places, so this might end up being a lot of people, especially if it’s an open house. So I’m not going to even try and figure out guest numbers. I will have a reception in Nauvoo, and MAYBE Utah. Only immediate family and maybe very very close friends will attend the rehearsal dinner. I actually had to spend a long time looking up the difference between formal, ultra-formal, and semi-formal weddings. Mormons are so out of the loop lol



And I don't know what to do about the rehearsal dinner because good restaurants around N-Town are scarce. I suppose I could always go to Fiesta Jalisco haha NO. Hotel N maybe? Idk. I'm confused. Hopefully some nice gourmet restaurant goes up in the next 4 years. They would be my immediate friend. But if it's close family and friends it shouldn't be a big deal, right? (More about the people than the setting). Gah I'm just glad I'm not doing this for reals or I might actually be pulling out my hair. Where does all the money for weddings come from?

Wedding Project

My friend Amanda is in Adult Living class at school. She has a project to plan her wedding. And me, Amber, and Tashi are all doing it with her just for fun. We're being totally silly but it does ask a lot of questions and it's very detailed. I'm kind of excited to compare to the other 3 girls. I wouldn't be so excited if it was for credit though.

One of the very detailed questions includes my Trousseau...I might have to skip that one haha
But I'll post them on my blog as I go along. Laugh at me when my real wedding (which won't be for a LONG TIME), turns out completely different :)

as good as it gets

I have been known for my downward spirals. When I get overwhelmed/stressed, insecure, unconfident...etc (you get the picture), I start thinking about everything else wrong in my life. And I usually can't pull myself out of it and make everyone else depressed with me. AND these past two days have been a figurative slap to the face. And I keep wanting to go cry and mope and let the world know (my emo side ha). And I finally decided to let it go and be bigger and stronger than that. And I feel much happier than I would've if I would've moped. I'm all for acknowledging your emotions and not pushing them deep inside of you. But now I realize the need to let go and move on. I've always admired the kind of people who do that. But what's the point in admiring them if you don't try to become like them too, right?



When you're at the top, remember what if felt like at the bottom. When you're at the bottom, remember what it felt like at the top. Good doesn't last forever. Neither does bad.

Tragedies happen.
what're you gonna do, give up? quit? no.
you’re still alive.
cause you are, and that pain you feel: it's life.
the confusion and fear.. that's there to remind you that somewhere out there is something better.
and that something is worth fighting for.

anyhow..I'm fine, I mean not that I'm over it,
but little by little, it's getting easier to pretend
it's easier, which means easier might be right
around the corner..
--gilmore girls